A big change

I've been thinking about becoming a vegetarian for a while now after doing some amateur research on the way animals are treated in the US and the environmental impact their production has on our planet. What I've found is honestly really gross. After watching this video, my decision is cemented.

I will not be eating meat any longer.

Since I began learning about the treatment of animals, I changed my tune to only purchase what I call "happy meat," or meat with a high wellness rating- animals that roam freely in fields, are not given antibiotics to grow, and are treated humanely. It's not enough. While ending my meat consumption may not make a large impact globally or even locally, I will continue to learn the facts about animal production and share them (in reasonable ways- I don't plan on grossing everyone out at the table if someone is eating meat.) so that others understand that it's not just about the animals' welfare; it's about our own.

If we want our children and grandchildren to live in a safe environment, it's time to make these changes in our behavior, and not eating meat is a simple way to do that.

Wishful thinking

I wish I could:

1. fly on my own with wings like a bird. This technology has to have been invented by now, right?
2. go back in time and spend his last three weeks by his side instead of focusing on school and boys.
3. understand statistics the first time my professor explains it. 
4. stop taking things personally. 
5. say what I'm thinking instead of what I expect others want to hear. 
6. change my role at my company to something I enjoy doing.
7. stop biting my nails.
8. travel more.

(I'll keep coming back to this post to add more wishes.)

Challenging myself

I've been telling myself for years now that I would get back into writing. Here goes!

I'm going to start with these journal prompts because I have no idea how I should begin this. There is nothing I want to specifically write about, or rather it's hard to write about my thoughts because I've felt so unsure of myself lately. (There is a cat currently in between me and the computer.) I keep second guessing the decisions I make, and in the past I saw myself as confident so that's really weird for me. I want to find out why I am not trusting my decisions, and I want to figure out what makes me happy. Besides Cooper Jack and Oliver.

Here's the list...

1. I feel happiest when:
2. I wish I could (list at least 50 things – keep coming back to this over the next few weeks to add things):
3. The qualities/values that matter most to me are:
4. If I could live my life exactly how I wanted to, I would:
5. The things I like best about my life are:
6. The things I like least about my life are:
7. I think am being really true to myself when I:
8. If I was living more in tune with my own heart and soul, it would feel like:
9. If I knew what my dream was I would feel:

I feel happiest when I am completely comfortable and having an amazing time with people or animals that I care about. Yes, I am supremely happy when I get to hang out with my dog. (I just itched my back and glitter came off.) To be completely comfortable I must be proud of my body and the things, people, and places I am surrounded by. Right now I hate my body and my lack of will power, or really even want to eat healthy or exercise. I am annoying myself right now for complaining, but it's the truth. It is petty and doesn't make me a better or worse person, but I judge myself for not being healthier. It doesn't matter the location, though Katy Perry concerts are my favorite, as long as I have good friends or my pet with me. And laughter. There needs to be a sufficient amount of laughter where ever I am, fa sho. I laugh at myself frequently.

Yeah, I have no idea what else to write or how to end. Se ya!